in the secret places

I have so much to say that it would perhaps take a book to detail it all....so this is just a sliver of ice on the iceberg of my experience.

I've been watching a series over the last week entitled "your body, his temple". In this series Caroline Leaf M.D a South African brain guru (can't remember her actual title) is talking about the complexities of the brain and about toxic thoughts and what happens to our mind because of the way we think.....absolutely incredible stuff.

So in it she talks about the need to renew our minds (sound familiar bible readers?) and how we need to take captive our thoughts instead of letting thoughts just roam freely around in our heads.

So my head is conscious of all of this....and then last night at the Leadership Jesus Way extension seminar conference we had a ministry time and God began to help me to renew my mind on some pretty painful memories of my past. It was an incredibly sacred moment. I would think of a situation and ask God "where were you when this was happening?" and then he would show me where he was. Powerful. Let me give you one example....

I was bullied at school and at one of the primary schools I attended I was being bullied after school by one of the girls in my class. In order to escape from her I ran into a classroom and hid in a cupboard and just cried and cried. In that moment I felt so alone, so isolated, so vulnerable...so I asked God, "where were you in that situation?" He said "I was there, I showed you where the cupboard was...I gave you a safe place to hide, I was your refuge" In that moment the many years of heartache and pain over that situation was gone. My thoughts about the situation had been renewed, the incredible emotional turmoil I have relived over the years was replaced by an indescribable sense of protection and care.

There were many more instances that God and I walked through last night and I have a feeling there are more to come. I love that fact that its in those secret places of our heart and soul that we are most found by God.

"Don't conform any longer to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12v 2